I have remained true to my pledge to myself to not step on my scale again until Friday, though it has been beckoning me, "Come, Kevin, stand upon me and know your weight." I have resisted. Tomorrow I will be able to answer its call. I've continued eating right, switched my coffee creamer to non-fat, took one more step down on my milk from 1% to Skim, and cut back on non raw fruit and vegetable meals, stuck to water, tea, juice (100% only), and skim milk as my beverages. I've also been making sure I'm keeping active, and working out for a good amount of time every single day, both cardio and weights. Regardless of what the scale will tell me tomorrow, I am smaller. I can see it in the mirror. My face is thinner, my torso is smaller and taking its rightful shape again. If the scale doesn't tell me what I want, that just tells me I've gained too much muscle, and I'll have to cut back on the weights. I don't want to be beefy, I just want to be toned and streamlined. I'm getting there. The more I work out, the more I want to work out. The more active I am, the more active I want to be. I had planned on cutting down another huge patch of my back lawn today, but the rain has spoiled those plans.
Tomorrow I should get my new keyboard and writing will be back on in full force. As it is, with this keyboard, I find writing difficult. I can write short things, but it starts to get on my nerves and I'm trying to avoid thing that aggravate me. As I couldn't sleep last night, I came up with yet another short story idea. This one will be rather dark, but I have the whole thing fleshed out in my mind. When I get my keyboard I will start on it. Hell, start, that's funny. When I start on a short story, I usually finish it. Short stories pour out of me in one, long stream of consciousness. Funny how when a new story idea occurs to me I immediately know whether it is a novel idea or a short story idea. I nearly have enough short stories written now for an honest to God anthology. I think after I get my first novel published I'll send the short stories to my agent (whoever that turns out to be) and try to get an anthology published. With the success my first novel will see, that shouldn't be an issue. People will be hungry for more from me, and it will give me ample time to finish my second novel.
I slept way longer than I wanted to, again. This is becoming a habit. It's not that I'm getting more sleep than I need, however, well -- sometimes it is. But this time, tired as I was, I just couldn't get to sleep last night. I tossed and turned and turned and tossed. Thinking, thinking, thinking. Damned brain. A blog came out of all that thinking, but I still need to organize my thoughts on it, so, I'll get to that later.
I just had a very amusing (to me) mental image of a mash-up between Lord Of The Rings and Silence Of The Lambs. Gollum, as Buffalo Bill, leaning over the pit, looking panicked, it pans down to the girl holding Precious, the dog. Gollum says, "It puts The Precious in the b (Read More)
I am in desperate need of the catharsis one experiences upon slitting someone's throat with a razor-sharp blade followed by the joy and elation obtained from watching the life drift from their eyes turning them to dead, glassy orbs as I am filled with the energy that used t (Read More)
I rushed out of work at 5pm
Plopped my ass in my car again
Welcome to the land of lazyness,
hey, gotta get my rest in.
Started up the car
headed home for my free time
Look at the street and I see a really bad sign.
Traffic looks so crazy
Everybody's in my way, s (Read More)
I envy a person who can hear their alarm go off, turn it off, and get up out of bed, ready to start the day. I live by the snooze button. It is my best friend in the morning. Well, it and my coffee. I'd marry it if congress would hurry up and pass that bill legalizing m (Read More)
So, my car's wrecked, I told ya that. The bumper was precariously attached. It began to become unattached. I'll fix it with some Gorilla Glue just as soon as the snow is gone and the temperature is more moderate. For now, I removed it and placed it on my porch. So the (Read More)
The last few weeks have been kind of hectic and draining. Last Wednesday I wrecked my car. Hit a patch of ice, slid off the road, down a hill, into a pole. I wasn't hurt. The car was. I spent nearly a week with my brother-in-law trying to fix it. Had to replace the ra (Read More)
Depressed. And I'm quite tired of being depressed. There's no reason for me to be depressed. No logical reason, anyway. I'm insane, that's obvious. I have great friends. What's left of my family, my sister, brother, nephews and niece, et al, are wonderful. I'm w (Read More)
