Over the past three weeks, I have also been convincing the dogs that I am the alpha male. Heather was always the disciplinarian, which left me free to be their daddy. But, they are going to need to behave, and so they must know that I am not their daddy, I am not their sibling, I am not part of the pack, I am their master and their leader.
As I was giving my dogs the stern look and bidding them to do my command, and as they averted their eyes, I realized I am also becoming The Alpha over my own life. My fears, my worries, my regrets, nor even my love rules me now. I rule me. I will not stroll along through life and take it as it comes. I am in control of my every action. I say what comes next. I am master over myself. I control my life and I am going to give it the stern look and force it into submission. And it will avert its eyes, because there is control in mine.
I am dominant. I am not weak and trembling and easily pushed around. I am in control of my destiny. I am in control of my life. I am The Alpha.
I just had a very amusing (to me) mental image of a mash-up between Lord Of The Rings and Silence Of The Lambs. Gollum, as Buffalo Bill, leaning over the pit, looking panicked, it pans down to the girl holding Precious, the dog. Gollum says, "It puts The Precious in the b (Read More)
I am in desperate need of the catharsis one experiences upon slitting someone's throat with a razor-sharp blade followed by the joy and elation obtained from watching the life drift from their eyes turning them to dead, glassy orbs as I am filled with the energy that used t (Read More)
I rushed out of work at 5pm
Plopped my ass in my car again
Welcome to the land of lazyness,
hey, gotta get my rest in.
Started up the car
headed home for my free time
Look at the street and I see a really bad sign.
Traffic looks so crazy
Everybody's in my way, s (Read More)
I envy a person who can hear their alarm go off, turn it off, and get up out of bed, ready to start the day. I live by the snooze button. It is my best friend in the morning. Well, it and my coffee. I'd marry it if congress would hurry up and pass that bill legalizing m (Read More)
So, my car's wrecked, I told ya that. The bumper was precariously attached. It began to become unattached. I'll fix it with some Gorilla Glue just as soon as the snow is gone and the temperature is more moderate. For now, I removed it and placed it on my porch. So the (Read More)
The last few weeks have been kind of hectic and draining. Last Wednesday I wrecked my car. Hit a patch of ice, slid off the road, down a hill, into a pole. I wasn't hurt. The car was. I spent nearly a week with my brother-in-law trying to fix it. Had to replace the ra (Read More)
Depressed. And I'm quite tired of being depressed. There's no reason for me to be depressed. No logical reason, anyway. I'm insane, that's obvious. I have great friends. What's left of my family, my sister, brother, nephews and niece, et al, are wonderful. I'm w (Read More)
